Serious mode kunyari... Habang nag-o-oatmeal, nang lumiit naman ng konti ang tyan ko
Isa sa mga madalas itanong sa akin ni Mama nung bata pa ako eh…
“Anak, anong gusto mo paglaki?”
Ang her eyes would glimmer whenever I say na gusto kong maging doctor, or engineer. Medyo nabahala sila ng sabihin ko nung isang beses na gusto kong maging teacher at sinigurado nila sa akin na magbabago rin ako ng isip paglaon… Nagbago naman din at nag-engineer ako, pero ngayon gusto ko pa rin namang magturo… pero gusto ko pagbalik ko sa academe may maganda at successful background na ako. I want to look like a promise to those promising next generation of engineers.
Kinundisyon kong maging engineer nung bata pa ako dahil sa pandinig ko, napakaganda nitong idikit sa pangalan ko. At ang pangako ng malaking sweldo including na ang makaipon para makabili ng bahay at lupa ay nasa pagtatapos sa pag-aaral.
By now, I am wiser to know na hindi lang nasa pag-graduate ng college at pagkuha ng lisensya nagtatapos ang alamat ng success. Tuloy – tuloy ang kwento, tuloy-tuloy.
In man’s endless pursuit of happiness, it is but easy to fall to the usual storyline. You are born, go to school, learn a skill, work afterwards, work some more, save a little, save a lot, have a family, and so it goes. A normal life… nothing is wrong with it, but ultimately nothing is special about it as well.
Nandun na ako sa “work afterwards” phase, and there I realized like I guess everyone I ride the elevator with or eat with in our company compound’s canteen. I really would like to do something monumental or uber significant with my life. I guess everyone wants to be part of something big, be larger than life.
What does it takes to be larger than life? How can anyone actually get there?
I get to look on my seniors. Bilib ako sa dami ng alam ng mga senior engineers namin. Kung pano nila na-i-isolate ang kawing-kawing na problema pag meron kaming issues with regards sa iba’t ibang elements ng network. Hindi ko pa kasi alam and I want to be one of them, Proficient and all. Basta may experience na bago, parang gusto mo maging ganon ka. They became specialist of their field you can just imagine how they can cripple the team kung sabay-sabay silang mawawala. The path they have paved would most likely the same path we are to thread, dapat malaman din namin ang alam nila.
So the next generation is supposed to go further where their predecessors have gone. Given of course na kailangang marating muna nya ang kinalalagyan ng seniors nya. They say only the brave can go and trail blaze another path, but that takes conviction, insight and vision. Its not a sin to follow the conventional, just make it a point that it’s a guideline and not a limitation.
If there is a fault I think most of our parents are trapped with is the mind conditioning that we are suppose to finish a degree because of the promising job it would give. Not because we should learn the skill from college the skills we will be loving to do and use for the rest of our lives. Because there is more to life that keeping ourselves slaves, ending up with no sense of satisfaction with what we have live in.
Ok so gets ko na nga yung point nay un diba? Gets mo na rin for sure… pero what’s next? Right now I’m a typical employee… hindi naman ako indispensable, I do good and sometimes I have my flaws too. I learn a lot, I sometimes work late and be overemployed even. I have my shares of “ang galeng” and “tsk tsk” moments. My wake-up hours are most likely consumed by my career and efforts for the team and I have no regret about that. But what makes me think is that, should I be like this for how long? If I’m to build something what should I build on the first place? Besides this, there must be something else that I should get more from.
I would like to aim higher… be a success in my own right. With my passion and enthusiasm I get to realize why, even though I sleep late at night tired and sometimes fed up with the day. We are far from owning my own “ladder “. Because I don’t have a plan yet, and I don’t have a plan because I don’t know where to start.
With that insight. I get to think… San nga ba magsisimula?
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